Today I feel calm, content, and happy.
I think it is because it's Arafah Day :)
I accept that there are things we couldn't change, like death, health (we can prevent, but once the illness strikes, we couldn't undo it) or even history. Things happen for a reason - we may know it, and we may not. But Allah knows. And I feel safe, knowing that whatever happens in my life/ surroundings, Allah already plans it. So why should I be sad or anything. He's All Aware and full of Mercy. I remember a saying (not quite remember if it is a hadith or something else) that said we should be glad, that we are in the hands of Allah, instead of our mother. Because Allah is more merciful to us, than a mother to her child. His love is even greater than a mother's love! So amazing! Well, he CREATES love.
I still feel a bit sad after the misunderstanding with my (hopefully) other half. I wish he still remember our old days years ago. What makes he fall in love with me in the first place. Why he chooses me. Back then, I was so naive, clueless and dependent. And he's ok with it. He's so protective. I feel so loved and cared for. But now, I think he is lost in his search for the ideal relationship/ marriage/ woman. I feel like telling him, "Perfect doesn't exist." Like, when we see a happy perfect couple, we always wish "aww I wish I could be like them!" but we don't know what kind of probs that they are having. What kind of fight. What kind of issues. We just see the surface. We don't LIVE with them 24/7.
Do you know that some other people, see us as perfect couple too?
Lol life is funny isn't it!
I hope you find your way out, because I still love you :)
In case if you forget your "old" girlfriend, here's things about me that you need to remember:
For me:
... and more, which u already remember.
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